Annoyed

I'm very annoyed right now by many things. Some of them small, some of them big. Why is it that people can't be truthful and upfront with others? It would really make the world a better and easier place to live in. I really never bought into that European idea too much that Americans as a whole are fake. A lot of Europeans think that we are fake, we ask questions to feign interest (ie, how are you) and that we're disingenuous. Yea, I used to think that it was nice to have some of that, niceties are nice. They are a crutch, when you have nothing else to talk about, you can talk about that, how someone is, how they like the weather. But after my expereiences of the last year, I will have to say that some Americans take it too far. They worry too much about being nice and being perceived as nice and being the "good guy". I think it might be in part due to youth, that thing inside of you when you are young that makes you yearn for acceptance. If you're the "good guy" then everyone is bound to like you, right? And I'm going to say that it's also in part due to that person's inability to stand up for himself. If you're always wanting to be the "good guy" and everyone to like you, then you don't have self confidence, you're looking for your confidence in the affirmation of others liking you. My lord, save me from the youth, stupid, inexperienced and spineless of the world. I do not suffer fools gladly.

The next thing that is annoying me, why are there so many people declaring things on IM away messages or profiles that just don't have to be there. Like declarations of love, really now, that's romantic, someone in cyberspace says that they love me. Awwww. NO. I don't need to know, you don't have to tell everyone about it so publically. I think it falls under the heading of "if I say it enough and enough people believe it, then it's true." Guess what, that's not how truth works. If you've got to let everyone around you know that you love someone by putting it on IM, then you're not letting that person know in a way that doesn't involve an open declaration or the internet. Find some other way to declare your love. Keep me and the rest of the internet out of it. I don't want to affirm your love.

Funny

So someone in France did a Google search for: top model usa Myra, and number seven was the blog.

Painless
Registration was surprisingly painless. I didn't even have to do anything to get my stamps. Yea, for that.

Jeez

Well, On November 18th I filled out an online application that promised a letter within 10 days. Didn't get a letter. Called and called and UMD said to call back that their system was backlogged. Finally I spoke to someone yesterday, they said for me to come in this morning. Filled out an application and was processed with me in the office, whole process took: 20 minutes. Yup, 20 mintues. I had been waiting for nearly three weeks for something that all I had to do was drive five minutes and then take 20 mintues to finish. I thought I was making my life easier by going online from the comfort of my work and filling out the app, then waiting for mail to arrive at my door. If I had only known that going in myself only would have taken 30 mintues tops, I would have done that on Nov 18th rather than waste all that time.

Proof that online forms are not always faster or easier.

Now we'll see how long registration takes.

Killing

I've been thinking about this blog and how much I don't post to it. Then I get some guilt about not posting as much as I do to the other blog. Then I realize that I shouldn't care. And now I've wasted time thinking about all that that I could have just spent updating the blog. I really really want to post something, but that takes both time and there's the possibility people who I don't want to read it will, so, I'll hold off for now. Oooo, something funny happened to me this week-end. Yay for the internet.

"Myra also killed whatever "I"m leaving" instinct out of me. " From simply breathing. I like being able to kill feelings in another, but in a good way. Not in a destructive-ha-ha-I-have-power-over-you,-watch-me-use-it way. That's not cool. Don't do that. If someone has described you as in a master/slave or bitch relationship, even if it was a joke, you should look into that. All sarcastic jokes like that come from some truth and that's not a pretty truth. No one should be a master over another.

I watched Spice World this week-end, I love Richard Grant and he's going to be the next Doctor on Doctor Who, though the fifth Doctor will always be my favourite.
"Now hear this:"
That is all."

Yay

I love my friends. I talked to MH for about two hours this morning. He's a great guy and it seems like he will stay in Japan forever, oh well. He'll be back for some things. I got a call this week-end from GF and he called me to say that he met this girl, who doesn't like me very much, and he thought she was ugly and uninteresting. YES, vindication. I love my friends.